Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Old photos...







Many of us don't have alot of pictures from our "larger" days. I never wanted anything documented to show how big I had become, or to actually have to acknowledge the fact that I let my weight get so out of control. But I felt out of control. I felt powerless to stop. I mean, who wants to be obese? In my messed up mind I guess I felt that if I didn't have any pictures that showed me "large and in charge", then that period of my life didn't exist. Case in point...I have yet to get any wedding pictures made from our marriage, almost 5 years ago. #1 - I was about 205-210 when we were married. My hubby met me at 164. I don't like any of the pictures. Not enough to want them displayed in my home. I bought a dress that I thought would look nice and not make me look so big. But it never did fit correctly and I was still ashamed of how I looked. How sad it that? I said "Yes to the dress" not because I was in love with it and thought "this is it", but because it would be appropriate and hopefully hide my excesses.






I took my niece's wedding dress back to her parents on Sunday and kidded her that I might try it on. She was fine with it since she said she needs to get it cleaned and preserved. So, what the hell, I did. And you know what? IT FIT! It was exactly the way I would have wanted to look at my wedding. We were at my parents home when my sis wanted me to try it on, so I did and she ended up taking my picture a few times in the dress. Then Mom & Dad had to see me, then hubby and my brother in law. Jeesh! But I have to say what a wonderful feeling to get the chance to see myself in such a beautiful gown the way it should have been 5 years ago. My niece has given me a wonderful gift in allowing me to try on her dress. More then she will ever understand. God love her...












7 comments:

  1. Wow you look gorgeous!! What a pretty dress!!!

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  2. You look gorgeous in your Nieces gown! I have the exact same issue with my wedding pics. I hate them! I was about 210 lbs and I hate the way i looked and felt. I have yet to hang and frame the one pic that I chose for that!

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  3. You look so beautiful. You are one of those people who look like you have been tiny all your life. I can't imagine you looking any other way. I am sure you were beautiful then, and you certainly are beautiful now!

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  4. You look amazing. What a gorgeous gown!!!

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  5. Wow! At first when I was reading, I thought those were pictures from YOUR wedding and you were saying you looked too fat. I was thinking you were CRAZY because you looked FANTASTIC!

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  6. For real - amazing. I so want a "re-do" of mine too...I think every girl should have that option. Wow. You are simply stunning. I would so borrow it again and get professionals taken....and I'd hang them on every wall in my house. No lie.

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